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Broken Flames 1117 NJ2018
Flames. Paradise has been given to flames
Broken. I will stay broken for long time
No, the flyers got free
They don’t want pity now
If anything you gotta live, and live strong and hard
As I am given the pain of heat
I demand that my survivors make the best of it
It’s ok do it for the hive
At this point all is lost otherwise
at this point all really is lost otherwise
Garden 2018 NJ 1101
When I was little you gave me
A really hard push on a swing
I have been flying ever since
the buena vista marked my senses
grace took my standards apart
my daddy passed out on the garage floor
hamburgers spilled around too
not his fault it started raining.
Tonight I walk. Ignore relevance.
Things I cannot heal
Or ever heal from
again the day arrives
the devil buried me again
and I still get up and walk
I don’t even want to.
Sleep comes poorly
In sleep is that land
where once true love flowed
I destroyed the garden and feel bad
Alone NJ1026 2018
I been wrong
To die with sword in hand
Children can be spared
I’ll be damned
Children crying
People passing even though
We ain’t clear
Crying even though we are wrong
A letter slave
blocked my chest
and a two inch screen
For killing time
Oppressed and I
Was just selected
Spat out the
Desecration
Forget heaven
Tide is out
Even though a great battle
Even though we’re alone
Rest Assured P2018 NJ 1004
Somebody’s gotta move across the end
feeling the loss the dying of the dance
let the feeling oh truth, the truth you wanted
join the bringer of men to die in war and street
in shame I shudder to the bone
seclusion and pain I want to hear nothing
a real neat place and tied with a string
left me crucified, left me, really thoughtful guys
untrue they cried denied and miss the ones who died
wasted earth tainted sky and breath
just sleeping yeah that’s all but they had died
the sting is there but long it hides
so rest assured within the drifts and haze
celebrate the wrongness of the feelings
and here’s the end so move across
rest assured the heart to keep inside is yours.
Missing Page P18 NJ 0917
Are we lost?
Lost like everyone is?
Take your heart to fall
Fallen for a love that is
never gonna happen
Runnin’ like a fool
I’m to slow to run
so my life is missing a page
So take your heart
You better go now
This one has fallen like a fool
How lost is this life
here in this world?
spiral through the darkness
from somewhere in space
a few seconds further
Is heaven somewhere far away now
far behind us
have we left it far behind
on a missing page
we will never know
we spiral through no-where
is this our lost times
missing pages we fall
Bright P18 0902 NJ
A reach to find the place where
Nothing strange is there
Illusions is a place to see
Today the world is a strange cat
Not the same and there never was
Hideous behavior
When given a world
Where it need not be
Learner stuck in a complicated box
Give up without thought
The mirror, inside we are caught
And the two who never talk
Wild a rope is slung about
Catch a victim or two
Then again there’s things you can do
Be a light in your eyes the light is bright.
Spooky P18 0902 NJ
Abandoned the real substance and matters
of a somewhat stable but creative life
And tossed out on your ear
to face the beasts of the world
But no real good reason why
other than that blind eye to human links
Why why there are words to gather
In the dusty whirling that is your mind
Ah but where we?
While all those others who could have helped
Those barred from your graces
And so very much unreal?
And further wrong dreams land you
In the pit of hell
It was really someone who is plotting
In your paranoid constructs
That really was never there
To attack and steal your millions
That you really have nothing
Worth all that trouble for some nonexistent spook anyway
Should’ve Listened P18 NJ 0930
Should’ve listened
Didn’t see. Didn’t give a damn.
Put down by a wall
Consume the gin
Should’ve taken back
But no reflection
Forsaken shadow
Consume the oaks
The earth
All the reasons to cry
And a thousand more
The machines
And contradictions
And beat them down
And never turn back
Never listen.
Should’ve listened.
Stolen P18 NJ 0827
For some reason
I gotta climb that trail
Take a fighting reason
Over the mountains of the mind
Oh no it’s not so easy
Just hills not mountains
Stark blue sky
one puff of cloud far off
thoughts of being brave
leave me a lost man
babysitting a bad dream
teardrops could be ready
puffed up courage
a great thought but then
a bunch of absence
has stolen my life’s plans
Mr. Charming p18 NJ0821
Mr.Charming and it could be me
all those demons in the streets
like junkie zombies
all hope further than believed
saw some stars that killed her
fading fast and faster than that
but they are all the same stars
in the sky, never moving
more useless now
had hope once she thought
half asleep the bus stop night
police drive by to somewhere more important
friends are not so much
as long as they mind their biz
really, there is a way
to give up is harder, much harder.
Scramble Games P18 NJ0818
The planning board
Silent underwater
In tunnels and behind the moon
Pour you a nice coffee
Get you to rely
Take your hard earned cash
Leaving you to cry
Leaving you to die
Fighting, they hope I never stop
Because I don’t know how
How to play their game
Tires gas insurance and I play
Making ends meet
That have never met
The soul yearns for other light
This struggle is a worthless one
Scramble games
In deadly streets
Steely towers unconcerned
Not that the clerk liked you
Some control is lost
and other gained.
The Price P18 0816
Oh I’m really gonna pay this time
and so why the fear of friendship?
Losing myself sinking deeper
Jones Locker deep below
But for what it’s worth
and before the flower fades
Tum tee tum losing my mind
My singing mind in ha ha, low loneliness
Big rivers flow into sleep
away from me and so so deep
away from where you finally break
the lights go out and hard ties let go
as a weather worn ship
then, what tomorrow brings
so very far the river flows, then
breaks away unmoored into the sea
No longer of the time that I’de
well, rather not say
Away from where I finally break
Turn the clouds, lost against the rivers flow
And what made me believe?
While still, the flower fading
You turn the clouds away
The sudden change tomorrow brings
Time is Short P18 NJ0731
Burning in the minds sleeping eye
Could’ve been a dream
But thunder broke the spell of sleep
In planetary keys of changing rhyme
My brothers and my sisters
This path is worn and jagged
Between today and torch of night
You losers cut it short and tight
They just wander around
And blame on you for choosing
But nowhere is the right so wrong
you’ll carry that crutch everywhere you go.
Fall P18 0805
Sometime you will use your wishes
In the face of pain and saying goodbye
In secret wisdom, come forth oh yes
It’s just not some cold wind you recall
Strange today, like some final time
but not
the given words fall into a lie about life
and shouting the serpents purpose in the clouds
that face that face of pain
saying baby you’re going to get it
well I’ll hide behind the store
a breath of love is lost in eternity
so lost so lost taught to rot
bound and cast in days left aside
a steady state, a star, a fall of stars
it looks cloudy outside tonight
So Alike P18 NJ0731
You, alone with silence
Remembering forever
But I can hear you cry
In the decaying moonlight
No harsh revelations
Or rage born of righteous fears
A tiny seed of truth
harbored in a shell of illusion
don’t know how to love
tired pigeons and tv shows
so fly into the rising sun
of side effects and full of drunken fools
turn again the setting sun in a beat
how love, yeah how love will make you
– make you sing and cry and shake
until we see were so alike
Less Useless P18NJ0803
Everything to the night
The oceans turn
And infamy sings a lowland song again
If a clean life was the wish
In angst the terrible truth to hard to say enough
My hearts divided in sad songs
Everything to bring me speechless
Uncontained we left that hotel was useless
And Jesus’ blessings headlights glare in the driveway
Childhoods heavy fog returns
Though I felt the loveless starry sky
And to the night forever turn my wishes meaningless
Next titles:
Legend
Can’t Wait Here
Unfair Game
Screaming Underwater
Fall Forever
A Spark in the Blue
She Sleeps in the Window
Trails From My Hand
Legend P18 NJ 0729
The legends and sympathy are about over
Nice idea but while
I hold a tea-cup
and acknowledge the beautiful children
remember the guest will arrive soon
someone is waiting in the van
well well well keeping a broken heart in a jar
as the night falls and love never calls
I have turned to stone
Last words, no echo, fall dull
Strained a bit too much
A guess towards the fading light
Lean in to hear last words
Alone is how it’s going again
Harmony to memory is fine and it’s okay
This heart has not broken the haze
Legends. Sympathy.
By every indication
Remember, if they are nuts
serving our heroes over the windy night
Can’t Wait Here NJ072918
But I can’t wait here
My days make me bleed
The truth of these days makes me bleed from my heart
But I could not hold on here
Secrets possessed by the sea
But the spirits inside
I can’t face you yet
Feel like I might not make it
Destiny changing with each word now
yeah yeah options for the madness of truth
We are all killin’ the world
And joking that it’s okay
Some wolf has us in the spell of its teeth
A shell of truth and I’m aching
About to crack
We cant just wait here confused
Musically blessed but lost
In a trance
Unfair Game p18 0613 Nelson Jenstad
Did you hear the ocean?
Before the dawn
this soil of life’s game
my heart beats fast, glad I got away
and hey your demons that are not
inside this game, well,
you know she’s sorry
she put you off, but this one is yours
who settled, toiled here for years
no, not your haunted fame
nothing you’ve done or gave
left only demons to your name
couldn’t hold ‘em on the outside
but you could’ve gone back in.
no grace. so restless. it’s no wonder, man
your stupid rage won that unfair game
Screaming Underwater P17 0222 Nelson Jenstad
Winning in a sludge
Now I hear your footsteps
Wish the way we judge
Now I know what love means
No one takes back the harvest
The young they came to save
Pay a price they cannot pay
Like screaming underwater
The desert now is empty
Last words were spoken
You can change position
Just by moving around
Try and talk to time
The last time was empty
Deaths old wicked face
Gonna make us pay the price
We know since the first steps
We witnessed the siege
Bleeding fists that pay the price
Asking for requests alright
Fall Forever P17 0220 N. Jenstad
Cannot abide
Feeling like now everything is wrong
Another bridge
I cannot decide to go across
if I look inside
The bottom of forever
waits and why am I
Afraid to say I care
and fall forever
I still deny
Nothing left to lose or gain
not right now
Or should I say I don’t know
A Spark in the Blue P17 0217 N. Jenstad
A spark in the blue above
Stuns my thoughts and breath
I ignore it’s light
A flash burns with a snap
Concerns me not
For what I saw
Don’t know why
Some starlit burst
Has made me cry
A spark in the sky
No it can’t be
I’m not ready
She Sleeps in the Window P17 0101 Nelson Jenstad
Soon the sunset
Takes away our day
Still hypnotic the suns ray
And she sleeps in the window
Inside the trance await
The archers by the columns
Face the late day light
Burnished in cruel years
Lost inside the window
Sunlight cheers
The colding day
Awaken, slips away
Trails From My Hand P17 0101 Nelson Jenstad
What if all you had to do
Was find a path
Where all there is
Are foot prints from the past
The reason of the river
Turns a corner by the cliff or
Waves break
upon the sand
trails from my hand
and rhymes
of times to come
and almost all my life
and almost all my life
What if all you had to do
Was find a path
Where all there is
Are foot prints from the past
trails from my hand
and rhymes
of times to come
and almost all my life
and almost all my life
Next Titles:
Patience Angel
War Machine
One Good Friend
Your Curse You Cannot Feel
Cause Now You Understand
Her Blade Is Jealousy
Walking on the Roof
Shy Boy
Shadow Echo (echo men)
Dancing Monsters
Kings of Sand
Gemstone in the Rain
Patience Angel by Nelson Jenstad
(P16 0814 based on poem Mercy Word)
I know I know I know
I only lied to myself
Made myself so wrong
move now through these times
And hey you told me
no meaning here
no mercy for fate
no compassion for fear
Patience Angel
I know I know I know
No meaning comes from here
Have patience, angel
These words echo in my ear
War Machine Nelson Jenstad P16 0629
Reform Deform
Bite my lip and
Stay the morning-side
Tuff it out and still beware.
Searching for the dawn
The rosey light of dawn
From the side of before
The likes of Richard prior
Voices sing tonite
Never rest but penetrate
The young witch
Is filled with spirit
Spin a free society
And the free and the brave
Walk a path to perdition
The things we left unsaid
Winning me and yet
I sleep with hunger pains
The dwarven war machine
Can’t climb the wall to heaven
One Good Friend P16 0629 Nelson Jenstad
Everyone wants you to think they’re great
To think they’re fine
To think they’re swell
Nobody wants to lose a sale
To go to jail
Or go to hell
Everything is fine and it will be alright
It will be just great
You will win the fight
Nothing to worry
Why we’ve got your back
We will wave your flag
Now down the road sayin’ what’s your name
Never heard of y’all
There just ain’t time
They got my dollar and forgot my name
Well it’s just a lie
So dare to play that game
If you got one friend
If you just got one friend
If you just got one friend
If you just got one good friend
Your Curse You Cannot Feel Nels Jenstad P16 0627
The curse that talks to fire
Can you resist your heart?
Let’s stop. You tell me.
Oh yeah. I see the steel.
The curse of life’s loss of control
And your page of life is showing
And the steel in the peoples’ eyes
Empty passage so long were going
Daring drivers banished souls
Bound in wire bound in fire
Resist the sickness, crawling
Curse that drives and is for hire
The curse that talks to fire
Heavenly creatures great and small
And banished in the snow
Trained to kill and that is all
A curse that marks the soul
Walk away now and that’s all
I’m hearing switches turning off
A day from you to call.
Cause Now You Understand P16 0627 Nelson Jenstad
No comfort do I find
As I ride through glorious night
The sea to this time
To the shore by night
I tried to make it right
From the sands of mourning souls
Formless unknown depths
Lost from all control
Flames of anything
You wish it wasn’t true
Cause now you understand
This night it came too soon
The rain a mess I ride through storms
And formless pouring rain
A torch of oil burns the night
And my horse pulls at the reigns
I know the sea is closer now
My farewell to the past
A sandy grave where keys were tossed
A flag high on the mast
You knew I left with out a chance
And my most foolish plan
To run across the burning sun
’cause now you understand
Her Blade Is Jealousy P16 0611 Nelson Jenstad
While I am smitten
Now be as brave as you can be
My life force never given
Kissed a lot of death’s whites horses
Wasn’t easy
That moment of heaven
Never worth the price you paid
Feel so good now
A messed up comment
Seeing as how
You went berserk later on
And it wasn’t easy
I stumbled forever
With your sword through my soul
To pay for a moment
Like something not worth nothin’
With the life left away forever
Pull the jealous blade out again
Walking on the Roof P16 0611 Nels “Nelson” Jenstad
She don’t telephone me
On the wings of yesterday
I try to improve
to see what it would bring
do you remember
how much walking
we did to hang out
You know I called last week
And who ever helped you out
Now I’m the black birds
Walking on the roof
Do you remember
How we were talking
When we hung out
Those kids hated us
And made us proud
And never very sorry
Every person in your life
Night after night
And when the telephone rang
And wings upon the roof
Shy Boy P16 0607 Nelson Jenstad
I am just a shy boy
And I’ve run away before
When I try to get along
And everything goes wrong
gotta hold back my emotion
swinging door and stepping through
so close that was so close
but remembered what to do
Time is like pistol
I don’t want to hurt nobody
Or even crack a crystal
Make a mess up someone’s world
I am just a shy boy
Just escaping from myself
These same old thoughts
Revolving doorway how can I make it stop
But I was young and stupid then
My monkey brain was just a mess
I could’ve took a breath and guess what
Clear the road ahead
Tip all my angles forward
Toward a moment coming hard
It’s the big one, it’s the bad one
And there’s nowhere now to run
Shadow Echo (echo men) P16 0514 Nels Jenstad
Shadow of a moon in leaves
Press in closer cannot quite see
a man in grief
I rub my eyes in disbelief
Shadow of Mantauk
Children of the clean slate
a noggin full of nothin’
here is a little taste
oh oh working in the garage
making a hot rod super stinger
oh yeah perfect and it holds a charge
reflecting feedback amplifier
shadowmen following up your mind
shadow research minus R.O. I.
Echo brainless art full of lies
Shadow monster deep inside
oh oh working in the garage
making a hot rod super stinger
oh yeah perfect and it holds a charge
reflecting feedback amplifier
Dancing Monsters P16 0514 Nels “Nelson” Jenstad
Beyond the breaking mixture, the story never ends
silent cries and whispers, the final trip I’ll make
beyond the final fire smoking steel-hearted ones
silent screams of marching columns forces us to break
beyond that silhouetted crest the steel-hearted ones
tearing through the countryside and hours running out
silent staring forest dark, dancing monster suns
your anger brought the choices made. Of this there is no doubt.
What a time before this storm but now it just so late
Cities burn and let them eat a decorated cake
Set the day the hour and now steal away your fate
A poor campaign from high above was so obviously fake
Captured lies on data files but access is denied
The pulse that takes it all away sent from the monster suns
And from the ruins once again the elements get stranger
Danger slides a bit too far, the fortunes lost its run
Kings of Sand P16 0506 Nels “Nelson” Jenstad
Playing the king diamond
Empty waking dream
It’s a situation
and you got the solution
yeah it’s comin down to this
yeah it’s comin down to this
a stack of plans – never seem to work
like wolves diablo unopposed
a country of discord
and no freaking wonder
the ghost of your last meal
is behind you at the wheel
yeah it’s comin’ down to this
yeah it’s comin’ down to this
a bag of plans – never seem to work
like wolves diablo unopposed
a buried light beneath us all
burns so hot and souls to scorch
of the darkest lights in me just riding to work
tomorrows mind hold high your torch
yeah it’s comin’ down to this
yeah it’s comin’ down to this
a flock of lambs – never seemed to work
combat wolves diablo unopposed
Situation will consume us all
and tomorrow, might just see tomorrow
the sky with no-one home around us now
if it feels good then don’t look in the mirror
yeah it’s comin’ down to this
yeah it’s comin’ down to this
a flock of lambs –the swarming solution
came down to this, diamonds only sand
Gemstone in the Rain P16 0506 NJ
In a state of grace
You never hold in mind
An easy life, a royal smile
An hour of your time
Threw away so many days
Damnation swollen mind
Threw away my soul with kisses
But caught the fisher’s line
And the world isn’t won
And we may go insane
under blinding days of sun
and the emperor of pain
threw my days with no look down
grace is lost for worlds insane
and the world isn’t won
just a gemstone in the rain
Next Titles:
Red Red Moon
Return to What has Never Been Before
Staring Out
Turner Hall
She Don’t Care
Only Came to Rest
Forgetful Blue
Someday I
Cast My Way
Dark Road
Wings of Restless Dreams
The Solvers
No Longer Soon
Winters Tell
While Tears
Red Red Moon 2016 0428 Nelson Jenstad
Just another jar another rounder
A hotel bar and all freedom of choice
A thousand roses and you’re in the race
There’s no freedom just more noise
It’s gonna be alright
I am like empty hands
As though we turned to stone
It’s like a red red moon
A tool for control alarms are flashing
Let your demons work you
Like a fool driving in a human stream
I’m leaving my own, the ice house owns you
It’s gonna be alright
I am like empty hands
As though we turned to stone
It’s like a red red moon
What different reality and looking back
The hotel bars your life could still
your life could still
could still be beautiful
Return to What has Never Been Before Nelson Jenstad 04 22 2016
Anticipation factors in a hollow void
Burrow with the anger underneath a blur
If to know none of my disdain but slowly deepens
See my life revolve around me on the sky
That college park vapor wafting liars
Use it till its nothing running cold
Assassinate what comes again with style
return to what has never been before
Serious to take me now with crows
Hey hey super now is big with super mercy
And in your mind the dying crying weakly
The fierce and unforgiving chanting piercing
Mad at nothing try to hide that smile
Anticipation cupid scolds your scowl
Damaged from the human consequences
Hey, still cant quit this hollow human style
Staring Out Nelson Jenstad 04 14 2016
Staring outward past your eyes I looked inside
When I’m lying out cold stripped of my beliefs
When I’m sad she comes apart from all those things
Staring out into the hills the eyes are dim
Will be upon its only world at any length
Staring through pieces of condemnation
Will be filled with us and lost in dolls and agonies
Staring outward past your eyes I look inside
So why was mama’s dream cold and took the soldier
Will be rotting in blood, it’s your contributions
So down and free your dreams, cold wind ill depriving
Will be fading – start to us, digging for nothing
Staring out through why you’re afraid inside
Staring out into the hills and down, eyes are dim
When I sleep I’m on the double side of things
When I’m near you know why your – are infinite things
Turner Hall 2016 0406 Nelson Jenstad
Hi my name’s hows it going
And I’m emotionally flawed
I tried to talk to you
And you said talk to god
We bend and break up
All the time refuse to make up
Hey my name’s hows it going
Days like these can stop a clock
When did all these people here
Crowd into this room?
Nice to meet ya buddy hey
Hows everybody doin?
My name’s how’s it going now
The thoughtful ones are strewn
Neighbors house is upside down
And everything is ruined
Toss and turners big convention
Fractured town by night
Daylight burns but underground
You see in dimmest light
She Don’t Care Nelson Jenstad 04/02 2016 (Lyrics for Song)
Yeah well everything you try and do
And all day long (you crying fool)
And she don’t need no hear no more
And she knows it – yeah and she don’t care
Your waiting up with flowers, hope and
shes won’t come till you stop moping
She want time make her mind up
Wasting time cant stop the world
Yeah she wont let you know that she don’t care
Yeah she wont let you know that she don’t care
A painted stranger fancy cars and
Hide the boys who smash guitars
Well bring a time that changes courses
Bearing all the primal forces
– she won’t let you know that she don’t care
she won’t let you know that she don’t care
Only Came to Rest N. Jenstad 04/02 2016
Only came to rest
Do not analyze on this beautiful day
And you can ask me
But I’m not pushing fear, you know?
Defenseless, ravaged
Slowly drink in my dim door
The tear stained dancer
Now I’m taken over
Only came to rest
The static forever needs no faith
Between all ages reach
Lay me down to rest
No reasons for the fool
No love left for success
No static in the spool
Only came to rest
Forgetful Blue 03/31/2016 N. Jenstad
Quiet and the poets pen, words of raging seas
Tell her on and on
Those dear to you
And set free this next one
You’ll feel sad – I’ll feel blue
And the bastards go through life
From a thousand faces
So much forgetfulness
I slowly drift apart
Bastard son of dying life
Spin me from something to be good
Tell her on and on
Quiet that they always wanted
Whispers spin me around
So slow I drift apart – this land we are fading
Someday I 03/30 2016 Nelson Jenstad
Welcome home to curtain call forth the fire again
C’mon now I didn’t know you, the underworld we fade
Welcome all collapse tonight, the new millennium of brave
A blind belief always talking – what do you do?
For the sake of night, fearsome no beasts up there at all
C’mon now I can’t make this up, your love willful rising
Welcome in fire the human beings try not to fall again
Thunder and lightening my heart of magazines
But someday I can feel you from beyond
Someday I can feel you from beyond
Someday someday I can feel you from beyond
someday I can feel you from beyond
Cast My Way Nelson Jenstad 2016 03/30
Next stop
Bring the goodbye
Now a bit
like buildings
high walls
face the street
your industry
left abandoned
mercy range
cast my way
Dark Road Nelson Jenstad 2016 03/30
Hey suppose the long road
Beyond your borders
where there ain’t much
more to go
Suppose the party ended
And your left beside the road
Just to walk into forever
where shadows fly and grow?
Suppose over the hills
come the self delusion white
she’ the moon above
and she fly with razored spite
and suppose that promised land
you said for sure before last night
and just last night you said again
but I am perfectly content
had that nightmare before
been to infernal dark abode
where were you O mighty one?
Walking down that road
Wings of Restless Dreams Nelson Jenstad 03/30/2016
On wings of restless dreams
you must still fly high
If you cling to fear
the beast will never die
the lord of chaos shall provide
himself a single strike
indifference rules the streets
and gold will disappoint
it ain’t that hard to keep your cool
your no good without control
and out of the abyss
I’m glad that you are flying high
The Solvers 03/28/2016 Nelson Jenstad
Don’t cross my ship and crew
No joker on the ground
Breeding ailments for war
And seeks refuge at my door
And on your decks aware
A singer smiles acidic
And everyone’s who breathes the air
inebriated crush and panic
ions blasting in the sails
and both sides of the seams
caustic kids are making useless deals
but no one dares to crush our dreams
both sides shook my ears
ask for days and get flowers
the fleet no longer here
to think they fought the problem solvers
No Longer Soon Nelson Jenstad 03 28 2016
Counting every second hand
Don’t leave me here to die
Counting down the pieces
Wondering I’m wondering
Oh oh between me and reason
No way to rest, until the drums
Until the drums
No longer soon
We won’t rest until the drums
and all the pieces adding up
and every beat and every second
counting every second hand
I can’t just leave you here
Counting every beat and reason
Between tomorrow
Me and reason
Running scared on
Shreds of reason
Winters Tell Nelson Jenstad 03/28/2016
A million winters this summer
And wars pretend to hide the ruins
I am the light breeze
that uncover human bones
so many hurting words
– this is a space ship –
like a horse within the fire stirs
white pony dares the foggy slip
I am the king of the law of broken bones
you met your universe
you hang your souvenirs
you hate the things of theirs
pretending won’t reveal the source
what nation set us on this course?
Just nations people mean us well
King of broken bones is cursed
And how winters stories tell
While Tears Nelson Jenstad 3/28/2016
A long time things made sense
God, God, stand next to you
I thought I was pretty smart
Now my heart cries out
Whiled away with tears
I never met a liar
So much as life on earth
Storm clouds filled with tears
Next Titles:
You’ll Deny the Stranger
O Industry
‘till its done
Johnny Blaze’s Birthday
Mercy Word
Tote Bag
Hidden Sun
I Confess
You’ll Deny the Stranger Nelson Jenstad 2016 03/27
When Father Time
announced you
at the workplace
you wished your
own best friend
return by train or grey or car
riding on the high wind
you better get prepared
the stranger still knows from afar
and Father Time denies
you reach damnation
run palomino, from the tidal wave
you’re on that bus
and now it’s ten years later
I’ve watched in pain and everything you’ve done
You can’t deny,
That your just faced with danger
of damnation, when your father dies
O Industry 03/27/2016 Nelson Jenstad
The stamp of industry is on us
And still you have a beautiful tone
The bizarre world industry
A birth from heaven sent
Aint no ordinary cars
We shall obey
And cannot flee
Captured my soul, industry
Remember all in sleepless dream
Just want my own thoughts
Stop the scream
Oh industry
Like like like Its not like the city
Or black hole tragedy
it already is
has me down o industry
‘till its done 3/26/2106 Nelson Jenstad
‘till it’s done
your banner, found it on the lawn
till it’s done
but its been raining
it’s futile on the ground
-we may not last
at your front door
the girls’ prayers
are not in vain
till it’s done
and promises
are plans we can not keep
till it rains
the banner waves
and everyone is gone
everything that’s done
Johnny Blaze’s Birthday Nelson Jenstad 03/25/2016
Can’t wait for words
Have a happy birthday
And peace and all of that
Take the sun ablaze ablaze alblaze
She fell in love again
With his spectacular pain
Fed up and loathing sunny eyes
Hear the whisper change change change
A haunting page of plentitude
Cut from the curtain drawn
Of two people;s hearts there drawn
Feelin and reborn and unpurely spawn
Can’t wait for words
Have a happy birthday now
And peace and all of that
Take the sun ablaze ablaze alblaze
Mercy Word Nelson Jenstad 03/24/2016
I know I know I know
I was digging on your lies
Made myself so wrong
And moving through the grief
And hey you told me
there’s no meaning from here
no mercy for fate
no compassion for fear
I know I know I know
No meaning comes from here
Maybe some compassion?
words echo in my ear (basis of song “Patience Angel”)
Tote Bag Nelson Jenstad 03/24/2016
If I’d ever leave this place
I’d know better
I’d know better
But that’s all left to them
I’d never leave this place
But that’s all disappear
and out and out this place
But that’s all that time
and time and space
But nothing oh yeah
Let you leave this place
You must realize
caught up at the door
weep and stand there
with a tote bag like before
Hidden Sun Nelson Jenstad 03/25/2016
Turn up hidden sun
Don’t turn away
Turn up the hidden sun
You turn us to day
Locked out of the cage
Liquid memory displayed
Lights from heaven lay
On green and pleasant land
There is no ecstasy
When you hit the cage
Apocalyptic wars
Oblivious from space
Apocalyptic torment
In my future fall
The skin of what you say
And we all move to lose
Still the lights of heaven
The hawkers down to far
The magic throne, see the court
Somewhere in a star
I Confess 3/23/2016 #17 Nelson Jenstad
Boy of disbelief
And attitude
Just have to know
What cut your soul?
cut from the sun’s
handsome son?
A hammer hearted victim
Put her right in shock
It was no joke
to test the sun
laugh under your breath
to young to ride
your bittersweet days
sun’s too bright
glint in your eye
make you change against your mind
man of disbelief
told her respect
the world moves
man, I must change
I gotta do
What burning bolts command
Just don’t wanna be
Lost to the road
What every boy
And I looked
As you fell
in disastrous ways
So better days
To trade away
those wondrous tales
Confess my ways
next titles
open hand
pin the suit
ring like coins
hey wake up
hold the leash
its okay to live
beyond today
no dreams
dreams of night
pray to die in vain
meet on missing
make amends
desolation highway
gone too far
every precious flower
Open Hand 3/2016 Nelson Jenstad
My open hand
Caters to your cries
a tormented god
Life lived to survive
Your opened eyes
Never forget
Is it enough?
To explain my mind
My open hand
Might let you think
You own your mind
well, a dragon claimed the day
Pin the Suit by Nelson Jenstad March 23, 2016
Be ready those the ones who care
Erase the kingdom of this truth that is not yours
Given signs of lizard brains and feel my grief
Always playin too much, but is it real enough for you?
Vengeance so what they, did she go?
—- too much damn tv
Vengeance shines through my label –
— tells me on tv
Vengeance upon those you’ve got
— raped by rejects
Vengeance will be too real
— like characters on tv
sick joke takes you ‘cause in hollow skies
desire pulls your strings to see you are shy
you just couldn’t resist, and longing for a rest
desire tied to teaching, to see them all – goodbye
Now you are not around showing everyone fooled
But you’re not so precious send off on a cruise
Mankind’s fault to drag us through all hallows eve
It’s making steam ships profit overseas
Ring Like Coins 3/2016 Nelson Jenstad
Do you feel the way it was, thinking of his name
I fight forgotten lies, through with what’s his name
Fight for your disease, then wanna kiss your mind
All the zeros ring, like coins malicious game
You splattered all my lies, I know the sky is blue
And on the road ahead, you were thirty something then
A fisherman and ruler, the shaking in the rooms
Speak to catch perfections eye, and dodge the rushing threat
I didn’t know what day it was, was thinking of a name
I figured out your daddy was, well, leaving that behind
What in God’s name kissing rings, in some malicious game
I know this blue sky open lie, yeah, leaving that behind
Hey Wake Up 3/23/2016 Nelson Jenstad
It don’t take your dreams’ dreams
Stained and raw shadows still remain
Not one drop you touch your angry press
Ministry of war that cold hearts go to
Get downtown oh you concrete pirate
Cut the mortal coil to the grime
Gone over me I lay the drop of death
Facing down drunk in some flower bed
It don’t matter the man’s gone over me
The mind turns off and stem to stern you rotter
March diseased, the mall you entertained
Like some drunken pirate battle you once craved
Now your eyes, complete and open wide
Breaking free you see your heart today
One second changed our special guest today
Open your eyes cause I’m leaving you complete
Hold the Leash 3/22/2016 Nelson Jenstad
I know were getting closer every wish
I know the leash slip from your hands
I know she said she do her best
Yeah yeah you’ll hold your life now in your hands
Recover from the breaking tide
A kingdom paper in your hands
The heartless stab me are just workers
My boring mind recover time
But now you say the red flag up ahead
I’m looking too I’m looking too
I learned the leash from your hands
Back by the edge I’m slippin, too
It’s okay to live 3/22/2016 N. Jenstad
Can you hang in space
Throw another day
And the rhymes of the big man
Got no respect this hungry world
Throw me like a chain
To the wayside
This planet, not the same
Still knows what the deal is.
Its okay to live
Except you say you steal
Throw another moment
It’s a lonely world tonight
I used to know what we were worth
tales of losing you one day
I think a soul when its found
It’s dream baby, you know I love you
No Dreams 3/22/2016 Nelson Jenstad
You don’t ever want to sleep
But dreams can hold you in her arms
You might love me but your tired
And dreams divide and sages rule
If you got burned before the nightmares
A lousy method left you cold
You found a little shop of laughter
I don’t wanna go back to sleep anymore
The days that ought to be reflected
Today wont reach until tomorrow
No turning back until tomorrow
You better not or you’ll get burned
Dreams of Night 3/22/2016 Nelson Jenstad
I can’t sleep in the deepest of a thousand winter nights
But drowning in dreams of night, I won’t do as they say
Buried and bumming, you stare right through your phone
Remind. How you, so full of sweetest charms,
Alive and buried under dreams of sleepless nights
Swept by a flood, still I won’t do as they say
The phrase is heard, though you did not agree
The dreams of night might carry me away
die in vain 3/2016 Nelson Jenstad
Like a good year without a heartland union town
Stir up a new world, don’t you worry
And the ghost hotel was tumbling down
I don’t want to hear you say it. I’m in a hurry.
Maybe this fight – over before it began
Soaked in brine and sick in vain
Frat boy gladiator circling the drain
Shoulda never took that drink again
Get a taste of the steel your moving
Don’t get complacent because you know
If they ever catch you, and they’re all searching
Your ghost will pray to die in vain
Meet on Missing 3/2016 N Jenstad
I would stumble the hardest
Having nowhere to run
No freezing smile
Taken to the drowning cure
What I expected
Calling from the cure
No way of going easy
Meeting you are missing
I would stumble now the hardest
In shock and freezing smile
We might meet on missing
Caught in a dream
Light the birthday candle
Stagger in the storm
No reason to smile
I’ll always follow you
And in my alter ego
Buts its far too dark to run
And nowhere anyway
But we might meet on missing
Make Amends 3/2016 N. Jenstad
And I push against the ground
And the salt it stings my eyes
And man I’ll find my way tomorrow
And I could hang on until tomorrow
Oh on these avenues and highways
If I could just break free away
Salt stings my redemption
And the Southern sky stares back at me
And fall slow motion to the ground
Can you try and make amends?
Oh baby try again tomorrow
Holding on a single day
And here, something serious
humanity so mighty
enough to make amends
Yeah you wanted it said
Every Precious Flower March 21, Nelson Jenstad
In forests nocturnal by my rage and despair
And you can’t sleep and every tear you cried
Oh but can you play again by the seaside
From this day on digging deeper than you ever tried
From gold and silver, freedom moves their graves aside
Just take the car and make it to the edge of night
Try to reach the blank face mower tears and hide
Wake up tomorrow like it never crossed your mind
Why can’t you speak the play your lines deceit
From this day on the play I am redeemed
Say you gotta work all day tomorrow
That’s okay escape the forests sorrow
In red and gold you sparkle unknown power
And surge and raise your voice to cry the hour
And speak the pressure drop and try to hide
Wake up again like every precious flower
Gone Too Far March 21 2016 Nelson Jenstad
That life away will get you back again.
Roamed a vast amount of time and land
Gone too far to get you back again
Where I was away or when I can
Waiting there on the rest her tears
Memory of happiness to tears
You’d turn a deluge of her tears
And become the flesh you would not understand
Reach that night and ink your name for sale
Return to live and hold a home in crime
To think that you saved – you cannot hide
Funny how quiet has drained your way back again
That you’d be gone forever high in me to tears
That you’re joking that you’d be here with no tears
That you’re about it, breaks love to bitter tears
Oh funny face how you’de be back right here
Desolation Highway March 21 2016 Nelson Jenstad
Sometimes you can see it written
Where forever just little something
Golden secrets one see through nothing
And fallen angels die within
Permanence is an illusion
Write your name in wet cement
Maybe just another coffee
But he loves you, your sole reply
Greed seemed like a good idea
And the tombstone doesn’t lie
A lot bridges you have burned
A spirit’s honor you have earned
And I gotta tell you one thing
Take a Sunday morning ride
Its just laundry and the dead dreaming
Along Desolation Highway